No tiMe foR anyThinG...

Sometimes feel so sian cos it's like when he is so busy with his work n forever no time for other things.. once a week go out..n no idea where to go. what to do.. walk n walk.. tiring...started to feel sian on this pat-tor thing...

Anyway.. he also no time to plan for anything.. no trips ( canot go anywhere cos not married ).. no outing ( cos work tired, dun want to do anything too tiring..).. forever watch movie.. eat n walk aimlessly....This has been like this since we know each other.. he is ok with it as he thinks company that matters.. but i started to feel so unsure...Is this wat i want ? where will this lead us to ? we dun have plans...well... no time for that i guess....

I know i cant blame him for that.. cos it's the job commitment.. but still i think maybe it's good if we can both take some time off to think it over.. wat we want out of this relationships.. i dun want to forever to just have a saturday boyfriend.. cos other time .. most of the time.. im still on my own.. so wat's the point of being taken care of just one day of the week.. maybe im looking for someone who can take care of me full time ? better ?

not sure if im being complicated...maybe im looking for different directions in life ? not sure wat it is though.. just in a very confuse stage....n feel so lonely.. dunno why...just lonely...emotionally..

I guess.. this is sign im goin crazy liao.. yeah .. must be.. k k.. must take some time off to cool down a bit.. clear my head.. think too much..beating abt the bush..

Feel like taking some time for a short trip.. holidays.. maybe follow frens go Bali..see how bad things there.. when come back will appreciate things around me..